Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Christmas 2007

Wo, how can it really be over? Amazing!

Some memories:

Justin and Sarah got Magnastixs last night. Justin was so upset b/c "They aren't safe for Sarah!" He was fine once we explained that it is the small magnetix that we don't like. But that was so great that he was so concerned.

Justin gave Sarah the pony "Skywishes." He had kept seeing the commercials and telling me that I had to put it on Sarah's list. Well, a week and a half ago, he yelled for me and was so excited "Mommy! Sarah needs Skywishes. She will love it. That is what I want to give her!" How could I resist? So, that night I looked for it since I was going to the mall to return something else anyway. They had 2 on the bottom shelf. Cool, right? Nope - AWESOME! When I got to the register the cashier was shocked that I found one. He told me that everyone is looking for them and that they are so hard to get ahold of. Go me!! So this morning Justin gave it to Sarah and she loved it! So cute. But the best part was really how happy it made Justin!

Sarah gave Justin the Care Bear dvd "Journey to Joke-a-lot." Both kids are Care Bear junkies right now and Justin keeps seeing the commercials for it on the old videos. He was so happy to get it. And tonight when I was talking to Sarah about it, she said "Mommy, he likes the song so much!" And she's right. That was the part he liked!

Too many presents. Too much paper! Too much cardboard!

They both got dress up clothes but didn't really get into that until around 5:30 pm. We finally gave them the dress up trunks from Grammy. OMG! So much fun. They played dress up for the next hour. They were so cute! Justin loved being a fireman, a policeman and a pirate. Loved it! And Sarah was a fairy and then a pirate. lol And they rode their new ride-on toys the whole time. I hope my pictures came out good.

Disney made a lot of money from me again this year with Sarah getting every Mickey Mouse Clubhouse toy and Justin being a Cars junkie!

Justin was so excited to see that the Reindeers had eaten his reindeer food and his carrots. And they messed up the snow and got some on the driveway!!!!!!

Saturday, December 15, 2007

I thought they were lying...

Mick took Justin to see Nemo on ice today. We didn't tell him, we just surprised him. Mick called me during intermission and Justin wanted to talk to me. He got on the phone and was so excited! "We're seeing Nemo mommy! It's on ice. I saw commercials on tv, but I thought they were lying!" So, so funny!

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

I wanna go Boat!

I totally forgot about this, but definitely want to remember this!

Justin loves to go and Vote on Election day. We vote at the Rescue squad right near our house, so we just walk down the street. Usually my parents drive to our house and walk with us. This year they were in Florida though.

So, Justin was all excited. Sarah too. We went down the street. Justin took a snack, of course. Sarah couldn't have one b/c everything was chocolate.

Mick brought Justin into the booth with him and lt Justin pull all the levers. We live in a small town. Everything was uncontested. lol

Sarah went into the booth with me.

Then we left. That is when the tears started. Sarah was besides herself b/c she though we were going to go on Grampy's boat, not to vote. I can see how she made the mistake, but OMG, there was no consouling her! Poor girl.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

When Christmas card pictures turn ugly...

I try. I do. I always try to get that perfect picture for the Christmas card. Things don't always go as planned:















Thursday, November 22, 2007

My poor baby

Thanksgiving was a little rough for Sarah this year. But I think I jinxed her. We went to St Mary's hospital yesterday so dh could get some bloodwork. As I walked past the ER, pushing Sarah in her stroller, I told her how amazed I was that she hadn't been there yet. Yeah - I know - Big, stupid, fat mistake! (Justin had been there right after his 2nd birthday. He had fallen on the Washock's driveway while we were at Danielle's bday party. He needed 2 staples in his head.)

So, last evening, Mick and I were in the kitchen while the kids were watching tv in the living room. Big Thud! Sarah Screaming! Oh crap. She fell off the recliner. She said her wrist hurt but she got over it and seemed fine once the tears stopped. Then she kept saying "oowie" some of the time. Then she started favoring her left hand. (which is her dominant hand) Then she stopped using it all together. I ended up calling the doctor right before 8pm to ask what to look for.

Sarah slept fine last night. At midnight though she started crying. I turned on the monitor to watch her. She was sitting up, trying to get her lovie without using her left hand. It was so obvious how much it was hurting her. But she fell back asleep after 5 minutes or so.

This morning she woke up crying and yelling "owie" again. Same thing. Not using it at all. She would hold it all the way down to her side. And she would struggle to do things with her right hand.

Ended up taking her to - that's right - the St Mary's hospital ER. Crazy, huh? What a jinx I am! So, anyway, we got there around 9:30am or so. No one was there. They took us right away! She hated the x-rays and just cried and cried. But luckily there was no break. The doctor suspected Nursemaid's elbow. He had me hold her, he pulled on her arm, and POP, back into place. She didn't even cry. But within a minute, she started crying "owie" again. Poor baby. They gave her motrin and they had me wait about a half hour to see how it was at that point. Sure enough, after about 25 minutes, she started using it a little, not much, but it was a start. We went home. She was fine by noon. Crazy. You would never have known anything had happened to her.

And on a side note - my kids are way too sweet. Justin will go places and get things and always want to share them with Sarah. Example - he went to see Bee Movie last week and got popcorn. Right away, he told Mick that he couldn't wait to share some of his popcorn with Sarah when he got home. So sweet, right?
So today, the Xray guy put a Scooby sticker for her to look at when he took her pictures. Then he gave it to her. Later the doctor gave her a balloon with a Dora sticker and a Dalmation sticker. When we were leaving, she kept asking me if I had the Scooby sticker b/c she wanted to give it to Justin. And when we got home, she couldn't wait to give it to him.
I just love these kids!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Baby Katie!

2 weeks ago, Baby Katie was born. This is the real baby Katie:





Cute, huh? We are so happy she is here! And we are so happy for Cara & Bob.

But it looks like we have a new family member too. Ours is also known as Baby Katie:



She used to be known as "Dolly." But now she's Baby Katie. What a great little baby she is too. She is so good at not needing too much attention. And she doesn't even cry when she's dropped on her 15 times a day. Good Baby Katie!

Sunday, November 11, 2007

The Day the Toilet Overflowed

Of course, it was all because of Justin.

He wanted a telescope. So he took all the paper off the toilet paper roll and flushed it down the toilet.

Fun times.

He never did get that telescope.

And now we need to replace some ceiling tiles in the basement bathroom.

Great!

Thanks J!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

"Humerous Bee Movie"

Mick surprised Justin by taking him to see Bee Movie today. SO when I asked Justin what they did, he told me that they went to see "humerous bee movie." I looked at Mick confused "what did he say?" Mick explained. The trailers for the movie call it the "humerous bee movie" and now Justin thinks that that is the name. Too cute.

Of course, least we not forgot that he has never called the movie "Cars" anything other than "Racecars" and he confuses everyone by doing so.

Too cute!

"Tuck My In"




I love those words! Every nap and every night, when I put Sarah in her crib, I look at her and smile. She giggles and says, "Tuck My In." Just too cute! It is definitely something I will miss someday. But, for now, I get to enjoy those 3 sweet little words and the smile on her face when I wrap her up in "big blankie" that Aunt Lori made her from her lovie yarn!

Monday, November 05, 2007

Sarah and the little things

Who is Sarah ?

She hates strangers and will give EVERYONE the “look”, even her relatives now. She now loves the attention she gets from it. She gives it to Ms Vici as music now and plays shy at first. So crazy how she changed her personality.

Is a major hugger! She really is good about the snuggling and the kisses. I cherish every moment of it because I know it will end one day.

Is scared of so many things “I scared of fireworks, I scared of pumpkins.”

Asks to watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse all.day.long.every.day! I wanted to surprise her with the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse toy for Christmas but now she knows about it. Justin showed it to her in a catalog and she has now seen a ton of commercials for it. So now, everyday, she'll ask "Mommy, can I have that?" So cute.

Tells Justin all the time that she loves him. And she really does.

She loves to play outside. And she hated when we make her go back inside. Oh, the screaming. Crazy.

Every night she has to have a snack while watching her night-night shows - Woobzie and then Calliou.

She loves bath time. She hates when it ends.

The little things...

Someone on my Mommy board asked us to share some things about the kids that they wouldn't know. So....I want to share the little things.

Justin....

He remembers EVERYTHING! He remembers everywhere we’ve been, every toy he has played with, where everyone lives. I will try to get rid of a toy and 10 months later he will ask for it. He never forgets.

Has a great sense of direction. He always knows where we are headed and that he's been to a place before. He'll always say things like "I want to go back to where we got the ____. You know, near _____."

He gets so freakin excited about so many, many, everyday things and gets so happy about it. When people show up at the house, he gets crazy excited. He jumps and jumps and yells and yells. He gets so happy. He loves when Grampy and Grammy show up. He loves when Grandma and Aunt Rosemary show up.

He always doing very kind things for Sarah and always wanting to share with her. He always wants to bring her toys and snacks to make her happy. So cute.

Will turn down cake and cookies to eat raw veggies. Loves his green peppers, broccli, cauliflower and carrots.

Tells Sarah all the time that he loves her and calls her Sweetie. (as in “come her Sweetie!")

His project at school today was to tell them what he was thankful for. Each kid had a feather that they drew on and Mrs D (she is back in his classroom as of today.) wrote what they were thankful. Justin's said "Justin is thankful that his sister loves him so much."

Justin loves to still about about his "Repair shop." It is his bedroom. lol He'll talk about it all the time. "We're gonna have fireworks at my repair shop." "We're gonna have to take that into my repair shop." And he still refers to his tools by the names on "Handy Manny." His favorite "friend" is Squeeze, his wrench. He constantly talks about squeeze and refers to squeeze as a she. Not sure why.

He has to watch every train that goes by our house. He gets so upset if he has to miss it. He'll even delay going potty to see the train. Some times he doesn't want to actually watch the train though. We finally had to tell him he doesn't need to watch it. So now, sometimes, he'll run to the window, see the engine and a few cars, and then turn and say "Oh yeah, Daddy said it's ok if I don't want to watch the whole train" and then go back to whatever he is doing. So funny that he thinks he has to watch them.

He also has to watch when people leave our house. He cries if he misses watching them drive away.

Now combine the 2 - we had guests today. They were getting ready to leave when a train went by. He stood on his bed and watched the train, telling them, "Don't leave until I get to watch the train." He seriously thinks he can't miss the train or watching people leave.

Love this kid!

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Can't I stay with you, Mommy?

Ugh!
Every single day, I have to hear him whine and complain for at least 30 minutes about how he doesn't want to go to school.
"I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go to school. I don't want to go to school. Can't I stay home with you, Mommy?
It is still killing me. We are almost 2 months into the school year. I never expected this from him.
And he still talks about when he ran into the road. Is that a good thing b/c I am pretty sure he knows it's wrong or a bad thing b/c he'd still love to run after me?
A small part of me is loving that I must be doing something right if he wants to me with me so badly. And part of me knows I must be doing something wrong if he's still hating school so much.
You're killing me buddy. I love you so much, but you need to go to school.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

One Nation Under Mimere!

So Justin has been asking a lot of questions about my Mimmy. She was my mom's mom and I really loved her. She died in March of 2000. Recently I started talking about her and Justin wanted to see her. So I showed him a collage I had of my Mimmy. Then we had the talk about how she died and how she's in heaven now watching over us as one of our Angels. He's been asking more and making comments here and there.

He wants to know how Mim got to heaven. Obviously he cannot comprehend anything about dying and our souls going to heaven. Heck, can any of us really understand it. So, he's asked if she took a plane. No. I told him I think that she floated up to heaven.

I have a hutch type piece of furniture that Mim had given to Mick and myself after we got married. It was great. I had always admired it, it looked great in my place and I had something nice to remember Mim from. So we call it's Mim's hutch. And Justin knows he's not supposed to touch it. Basically that is just b/c it is the one non-childproof thing in our house. For some reason both kids ignored it as babies, even though it is something we walk by at least 80 times a day. Now if he goes near it, we tell him not to and he closes the drawer and walks away......So the other night Sarah was walking past it and Justin told her to be careful. He said something like - That is Mimere's furniture and it is very special to mommy so we need to not touch it. Awwwwww....

So then he was downstairs getting a toy and started yelling for me to "come here!" He was on the stairs looking at the collage of Mimmy and was so excited. He pointed to a photo on Mim in front of a jet plane. "Look Mommy!!!! That is Mimere! And that is a plane! So she must have taken a plane to heaven!!!" He was so happy! I smiled like I was so proud. "Wow Justin, you might be right. Look at that." Then later I told him again that I think she floated up to heaven and that she probably did not take a plane.

Then we saw a funeral and I had to explain a little that someone died and people were going to say goodbye to that person.

So driving home yesterday he went on and on and on about Mimere and her going to Heaven. He came up with a great idea. "Mommy! I know what we can do! You can bring me to see a dead person and we can watch how they float up to heaven." Oh my.....

So tonight he was so excited that he was going to go up to Aunt Lori's house to record something for a Christmas present. One of the things he wanted to do was say the Pledge of Allegience. SO I asked him to say it again for me as I was getting his sneakers on him.
This was what he said
"I pledge of Allegience to the flag of the United States of America.
One Nation, Under .....oh mommy....what is your friend's name again?"
Me: "Ummm...do you mean Mimere?"
J: "Yes! Mimere! One Nation under Mimere and around God, indivisible, with Liberty and Justice for all!"
And he could not have been more proud!

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Like a Rock Star!

We went to visit Mick at work yesterday and the students loved him! They went crazy every time he'd talk. And then we brought him out to the playground and let him play with the kids. It was hysterical! I would look out and see Justin running around with 20 kids running after him like he was a rock star. And then he'd go down the slide with 20 kids all around the slide wanting to be the one to catch him. What a hoot! Then he found the tire swing, which he loves, and he kept twirling it around, pushing it into the boys and the boys would fall down, making Justin laugh so hard. It was just way too cute to see Justin so happy. It was sad thoug that he wanted to go to the lunchroom with them and I couldn't let him.

Sarah was also a star. But she was so stand-off-ish that she couldn't maintain her crowd of 20 people. lol

Justin updates

He still complains and cries about school everyday. Every.Single.Day!

It sucks.

I think he actually likes school but he would rather be with me and Sarah. He wants to always know what we are doing while he's in school. And everyday he is now standing at the window, crying hysterically while I walk away.

It is breaking my heart!

Not just scared of fireworks anymore

Sarah is starting to be scared of everything these days.

Let's add to the list:
1. Fireworks
2. TMX Elmo
3. Justin's snake stuffed animal
4. Justin pretending to be animals
5. The snowman squeaky book
6. Pumpkins!!!!!!


And she's not just scared. She is poop in her pants scared!

Speaking of which, did I ever tell you that she did poop her pants when we took her to the fireworks in July? Yup. Not kidding. She was fine before the fireworks. When they ended, I picked her up and she had pooped through her pants and even onto my pants. Yup, the fireworks literally scared the crap out of her!

And, of course, the dreaded pumpkins! Every day we have to hear the cry of "I scared of Pumpkins!" What? Why? "Singing pumpkins on Calliou!" Oh, yeah, of course...

"I scared of fireworks!"

Sarah tells us this every day.

Sarah hates fireworks and is scared to death of them.

Sarah's new "Look"

Lately Sarah has been hating strangers. It is just amazing the look she will give people. It all started a few weeks ago at Hannaford. She started giving "the look" to the bagger that she used to smile at and talk to. Then it got worse. It became a joke between the bagger and myself. Last time we saw her Sarah was shaking and on the verge of tears. Sad and yet so funny at the same.

So, she's been doing this little by little to people she doesn't know. And it is just starting to get worse.

Yesterday we went to visit Daddy at work for lunchtime. When we got there, Sarah was completely freaked out by the students. She wouldn't look at anyone. And she did the look. And it just kept going. The whole time we were there she did the look. And then she did the REALLY mean look if she happened to catch eye contact with someone. Crazy. I was so sad that I didn't have my camera.

So, off we go today and I had the camera in my pocket.

At the post office:



And at Target:



And finally at Kindermusic. I am stilled confused by this though since she has been going there for so long now. She usually loves class from the very start. Today she did the look for the first 10 minutes of class. She was a piece of work today!







You would never know by looking at these pictures that she is so darn cute and huggable. I just love her so much it breaks my heart!

Friday, September 21, 2007

More Justin info

So, things are getting a little better.

All week long, Mick has been playing school with Justin. Justin calls it "playing 6 yr old" b/c he pretends Mick is a 6 yr old and that Justin is the teacher. So they role play school and it is really helping. Mick stresses the fun parts of school and we are trying to talk about some of his classmates. Last night Justin was, as usual, playing Mrs Field and he had Sarah being Mrs Attila. So darn funny. He'd keep yelling at her whenever she wasn't cooperating which was most of the time. "No Mrs Attila, you need to do..... " "No Mrs Attila, you need to be doing this." So cute. Poor Sarah.

Today I was talking to a mom before school and Justin started tugging at my arm "mommy, it's time for me to go in." So he's getting better about wanting to go to school. Thank God!

The parents are still all upset, especially b/c they were never told what happened. And now the kids were supposed to start gym class today. Didn't happen after all. Instead they played in the "pen" and praticed walking in a line with the teachers. A letter was sent home to all of us explaining the procedures for walking to gym class and for the class itself. That made me feel better that they are finally addressing the parents a little.

What else? I know I had more. Can't remember now.

Oh....as we were leaving school today Justin told me "I missed Sarah so much today. I didn't cry for you today mommy, but I did cry for Sarah." Awwww.... Meanwhile she is always crying to go to school with him. And I need to keep quiet to Justin about what Sarah and I do while he's at school. He'd be so mad if he knew we went to a garage sale today. lol

Monday, September 17, 2007

School Update

Copied from my scrappin board:

This morning:
I did it. He is at school. I wanted to vomit. My legs were shaking. But I knew I had to do it. He is at school. I told the teacher and principle that I was a nervous wreck. I needed them to know. 4 of the moms were waiting to talk to the principle. They understand needing to change drop-off and pick-up but they are not happy with the way they are doing it. So, we’ll see. Most of the school year is cold weather. It is not right to make all the younger siblings wait outside. Don’t know what will happen. But I am glad they are talking to her. I kept looking behind me as I walked away. I cried as I drove away. But I did it. And I have a playgroup for Sarah coming over soon so I will be distracted. Yeah.

Oh...and all weekend he talked like he still didn’t get it. Today we didn’t talk about it. But when we were walking to school he told me “Mommy, I won’t run after you today.” That definitely helped.


After picking him up:
I went to pick him up and I was still shaking. But he came out happy. And he told me right away “I was crying for you but I didn’t run.” So I think he’s getting it a little after all.

More parents found out and were very upset, of course. The school still needs to figure out what they really are going to do with the cold weather. There are a lot of siblings that have to wait outside and they will be hearing lots of complaints. One mom is so upset b/c they will have gym classes on Fridays which means walking outside and crossing the street. That part actually doesn’t scare me too much. The teachers will be there and these kids need to learn to walk without running off. Now, Justin running out of the building and no one noticing is a different story. That is scary. But I think the kids will be fine on the way to gym. And Justin wasn’t running off just to run, he was chasing after me.

So, anyway, one day down and I feel much better. I got him right back to school so he knows he needs to be there.

It still is amazing to me that I reacted so differently than almost everyone I talked to would have. I did not yell at them. They are to blame, but so is Justin. Thank God he was safe. But yelling at them will only lead to making me “that parent.” I talked to them, they heard me and I know I can talk to them again if I need to. Yelling at them wouldn’t get me anywhere. I was just shocked that everyone else would have yelled so much. Oh well, I am just not a yeller I guess.

And now tonight:
I went to the PTO meeting to sign up as a grade parent. Ends up they are not allowing parents into the building anymore, for the most part. This is Pre K through 8. Woo! All cause of my kid! Anyway, at the meeting I saw the mom who got Justin and was able to thank her again and give her a hug. I almost started crying hysterically again. But I stopped it in time. Then I got to see 2 moms I knew from last yr and explained to them what had happened and why the drop off and pick up policies have changed so much. I was talking to one of the moms outside after the meeting when the principle came out so I ended up talking to her again for about 15 minutes. It was good to be able to let her know I am a level headed parent who is not yelling at her or the teacher but that I really am scared and that this really better not happen again. I will be nervous for at least a month, I am sure. But I'll have to deal with it.
Tonight Justin and dh were playing "school" and at one point I asked about one of the current new classmates of Justin. Justin's response was "Oh Clayton! He's a bad boy. He ran out into the road. But he learned his lesson and won't be doing it again."
I guess it is getting through a little.
But, also, the whole ride home from kindermusic tonight he talked non-stop about how he never wants to go to school again and how he wants to just stay with me. Ugh!

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Thoughts of a 2 year old Sarah

My conversation with Sarah today went like this:

Me: Sarah, would you like to go to the market with me?
Sarah: I'm scared of fireworks.

Yup. That's it. We've scared her for a while. Poor kid. She just keeps coming back to this.

We had gone to the TugBoat Roundup last weekend and went Saturday night to see the fireworks. Great display, of course. But it was so scary b/c we sat out in a thunder storm. Crazy ass people in my town! Anyway, the first firework went up into the air and Sarah grabbed onto me so tight. She tucked her head into my chest and shoulders and wouldn't look up. She hates them! poor girl!



My scariest moment ever

Copied from my mommy and scrappin boards:

This happened on Friday, Sept 14th.


I can't stop thinking about it and I have spent most of the day crying.
Justin ran out of his school today, got far and ran into the road. His teachers didn't even know he was gone. Thank God a mom I knew happened to see him and grabbed him, took him back to school and informed his teachers. They still hadn't been missing him. He must have been gone 4 or 5 minutes.
I am terrified of what could have happened. If Chrissie had not been there to get him.... And OMG, how was there not a car going by as in ran in the road. And Chrissie was the only one around when it happened. If she had not been there, how long would he have been gone before the school even realized he was missing and called the police.
He went into the classroom fine this morning. Complained a little here and there that he didn't want to go to school today. But nothing big. I kissed him, said goodbye. Then he was upset and wanted me. The teacher held him for a minute or two. Then she put him down to work on attendence with a couple of the other kids. And he took off. The door was still open b/c a mom was still in there. He just left, ran out the outside doors and never stopped. NO ONE SAW HIM! He ran out after me and actually saw my van going down the street and went after it.
Breaks my heart - he wanted to know why I didn't hear him b/c he was yelling so loud for me.And he doesn't get it - not at all. He has no clue what he did was wrong.
Oh..I should say the kid is a runner. This is a known fact to dh and me and we have him on a short leash with us. He will not stop when you say stop.Case in point - after school I was walking with him to the car, with Sarah in my arms. I put him in the van and asked him where he was when Chrissie saw him and he said "here I'll show you!" and took off running. I was yelling at him to stop and he just kept running. Until I caught him, running as fast as I could while holding Sarah, and grabbed him.
I just am at a loss.I am so mad at him.
I am so scared of the what ifs.
I am so grateful for for friend running after him.
I am so mad that it happened and that it was able to happen.
I will be so scared to drop him off again. They are changing the drop offs and pick ups and it should never be able to happen again. But that doesn't even start to make me feel better.
So, anyway, that is why I didn't do the crop today. I wanted to, but this changed everything. I spent the day shaking and crying instead.


And these were my thoughts the next night, titled "I am having a nervous breakdown":

I can’t stop thinking about it and I can’t stop shaking.
The thoughts of leaving Justin at school on Monday are killing me.
I know he will be fine. I know that they will be watching him so darn closely that nothing could possibly happen.
But still.... He keeps saying he doesn’t want to go to school. And he’ll ask me out of the blue “Mommy, next time it’s time for school, can I just go with you and Sarah wherever you are going?” The kid does not want to go. Now, I know that is just a seperation thing he needs to get over. But the fact that he doesn’t want to go, combined with the fact that he doesn’t understand that what he did was wrong or scary, leaves me shaking. He’d run again in a second from everything I sense.
I talked to the principle yesterday afternoon. They are changing the drop-offs and pick-ups so that the parents do not go inside the building or classroom, thus allowing the teachers to be able to watch the kids more closely. There will not be parents in the room trying to talk to the teachers. I know they will not let him run. But I am just losing my mind over this.
And, no, I cannot just take him out of the school. This is where we were planning on sending him for kindergarten. We just need to get past this. And I need to not pass out. Seriously, I just want to stand in front of the school for the 2 1/2 hours just watching the doors.
OMG! I am going to freak out on Monday. And, when I drop him off, I won’t even be able to really tell the teacher how freaked out I am, but I know I need to. I need them to realize how scared I really am.
How could they have let him run off and not even realized he was gone? OMG! Now, I do actually see how it happened. I totally do. And they are taking these steps to see this can’t happen again.
But I just want to cry (and often do) thinking that I would probably never have seen him again had my friend not noticed him.
Justin keeps asking me why I didn’t stop for him. He says he was yelling so loud that how did I not hear him as he ran after my van. OMG! If only I had just looked in my rear-view mirror, I would have seen him. I missed seeing him coming around the corner by maybe 20 seconds. OMG! I just can’t stop thinking about it. It doesn’t help that I have the whole weekend either.
Oh...so I am thinking the only reason my friend even saw him was b/c he was yelling for me. OMG! This could have gone so wrong. I am still just losing my mind. I am not even close to being at a place where I can just Thank God for saving him. I can’t relax enough to do that.
And, since you wouldn’t know this much, I am the over-protective mom. My kids only get in a car with me, Mick or sometimes (when necessary) with my mom. I am so scared of things happening to him b/c I wasn’t there with him. My dad constantly wants to bring him places and Justin would love to go, but I never let him. I am too scared to leave him with other people. I just don’t trust anyone with my kids. So, this situation just makes this so much harder on me.
I can’t stop wondering what would have happened. When would they have realized he was missing? He must have been gone 4 or 5 minutes and they had no clue. Chrissie brought him back into the classroom and had to inform the teacher that he had been in the street.
He doesn’t get it. He keeps saying “It’s ok Mommy, I would have just been flat.” or “It’s ok mommy. If a car had been coming, I would have just run around it.” or “It’s ok mommy. If I had been dead, you could just make me again.” OMG!!!!
So, yeah, how far would he have chased after me? Would he have given up and gone back to the school or kept going? What would he have done had my van already been gone? Would he have stopped and gone back inside instead of running after me?
Thank you so much for letting me type this all out. I needed to get some of this out of me.
And on top of all these fears, I am still tying to figure out how to get him to take us seriously, to calm down in general when he gets so loud and hyper, to stop running from us, to just be calmer. The principle kept telling me to take him to the pediatrician and maybe they can help us with how to get him to stop running. I guess it can’t hurt to talk to her. But I am so pissed to do it alone. I would want dh there. I am tired off things being my resposibility. Yeah, i know he’s back to teaching and needs to be there. I am just tired of being a parent with so much responsibilty right now.
The principle also just seemed to be placing so much blame on Justin. Not really, but sort of. Know what I mean? I know we need to work with him on the running thing, but from everyone I have talked to, they all think Justin didn’t do anything wrong. They all think the school should have stopped him. Even if he wasn’t a runner, he just wanted his mommy so darn badly that he would have run after me. So it isn’t fair that they blame him at all. Other kids hang onto Mommy so tight that the mom can’t leave the room. I had left so Justin ran after me. And this woudn’t have happened had a mom not still been in the room trying to seperate from her kid. If she had been gone, the door would have been closed.
So, I feel a little better now. But I know this won’t go away anytime soon. I am just so scared to bring him back there and leave him again. But he needs to go to school and get used to it again. I am still just so shocked by this b/c I never saw it coming. He was excited to go back to school all summer long. Then again, he has a new teacher and his friend is in the other class. Oh, and as far as sending him full day with the teacher he knows and his friend, instead of half. Yeah, he’d probably be happier right now, but I would be still be a nervous wreck. He’d be gone 5 hours a day and that would be 5 hours that I would be on edge instead of 2 1/2. RIght now I feel I would be better having him closer to me than in someone else’s care.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Summer Fun!

We are so busy this summer and we are loving all of it!



Right after Justin's birthday parties, we went to Sesame Place. Then we went to Mystic a few weeks later. In between, we'd had tons of birthday parties to go to, we went to Magic Forest, and so much more. We have been really enjoying this summer!



























Happy Belated Birthday Justin!

I just realized I have been ignoring my blog big time. I missed my boy's 4th birthday. So sad.


Justin, I love you! I cannot believe you are 4 already. You are a wonderful little boy who makes my world have meaning. I can't remember what life was like without you.


You are a happy person who is so easily excitable and who just has this crazy enthusiasm for so many, many things in life. I have never seen someone get so excited about things as you do. It is so fun to watch!

For your birthday I know you had 2 great parties! Here is some evidence:











Saturday, May 26, 2007

A Day Out With Thomas

We loved it last year so we went back this morning.













Outside play

Finally...we have had some Awesome weather this week!






















Knock Knock

So, it was over 2 years ago that Justin learned his first Knock Knock joke.

It was May 3, 2005. Grammy and Grampy were driving Justin and Emily down to St Peter's hospital to see me and to meet baby Sarah. During that ride, Emily taught the then 22 month old Justin his first Knock Knock joke.


Knock Knock

Who's there?

Flowerpot!


Yup. Justin and Emily laughed and laughed and laughed. So at the hospital, Justin told this great new joke to Mick and myself. And he continued to do so for 2 years now.


Well, mark today as a new day! I have been working on teaching Justin the Banana-Orange Knock Knock joke. It's been a rough rode that usually goes something like this:


Knock Knock

Who's there?

Banana ya glad I didn't say orange


Oh my....


So, I was shocked when it all came out right this morning:


Knock Knock

Who's there?

Banana

Banana Who?

Knock Knock

Who's there?

Banana

Banana Who?

Knock Knock

Who's there?

Orange

Orange Who?

Orange ya glad I didn't say Banana!


I wanted to jump up and down. I was so proud!


So a minute later I was brought back to earth by:


Knock Knock

Who's there?

Banana ya glad I didn't say orange!


LMAO


But - later tonight Mick was all excited to tell me that Justin said it right to him!! Yeah. You go Justin!!!




"Nice to Meet you!"

Have I told you about Sarah's favorite thing?



She takes your hand, shakes it and says "Nice to Meet you!" Mick taught her this at least 9 months ago and she still does it almost every day. It makes me laugh everytime. She'll usually do it at least 6 times in a row before she'll move onto something else. The funny thing is that she is now starting to do it to other people who have never seen it before. They can't get over it.

I love her!

A mommy first

For a lot of people this might not seem strange. But to me it is VERY strange.
I am a SAHM. I have been all along. I don't let my kids go anywhere without me. So if they know someone, I know them. And if someone knows them, I know them. So...

We were at the Memorial Day parade this past Weds and the kids were having a blast. We were sitting on the curb with our legs in the street. The kids were sitting so nicely. And then the got into the whole jumping up and running out to get candy thing. It was all very cute.

Then someone yells out "Hi Justin!" He smiles and waves back. Mick looks at me. I look at him. "Who is that?" we both ask. Neither of us knows this lady. What? How does someone know Justin if I don't know who they are? We asked Justin. "She's a teacher Mommy." I figured it out before Mick. "Oh upstairs." His class often gets together with the other 3 yr old preschool class that is upstairs. "Uh huh. With bumpy headed Meghan." lmao We refer to our previous playgroup friend, Meghan G as that because of her curly hair.

So, anyway, it was just a weird, weird moment for me. I know it will happen a lot but this was the first time and it was strange.

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Justin at almost 4


Justin's turn:

- Justin loves to fix things - still. Everytime Grampy comes over to fix something, Justin is in his glory! He gets out all his tools and goes and helps Grampy. He is never happier than when he's helping to fix things.

- Justin is all about Cars (the movie.) He talks about Lightening McQueen and Mater all day long. He has a great imagination. He got all the cars in the Easter basket and plays with them everyday.

- He still loves cars and trucks in general. He loves to play worker trucks.



- He doesn't nap anymore b/c if he does he will be up until 10:30 at night. So we dropped the nap about 4 months ago. So each day we put Sarah down for her nap, we go downstairs and put on a dvd or some shows. I lay on the couch and Justin sits on me to watch tv while I nap.

- He loves his books. He loves to look through them in the morning or at night before he falls asleep. At night he needs us to leave the light on. When I go in later to turn it to dim, often he will be laying strange and has an open book on his pillow.

- He still wants his Fisher Price acquarium in his bed, as well as his womb bear.

- He is starting to get picky about his clothes sometimes. It is mostly his jackets that he cars about though. He has favorites and gets upset when I put something else on him. He also has a preference for his sandels and gets mad when I put his sneakers on. When we went a couple weeks ago to get new shoes, he was so upset b/c he loved his old sneakers and his old sandels.

- He loves watching movies now. He loves Cars (of course), Finding Nemo, Monsters Inc.

- He loves his sandbox and riding his bike. He gets so upset when it's bad weather and he can't be outside.

- He still idolizes his cousin Ian, who he calls "My best friend Ian!"

- He is still so wonderful to Sarah most of the time that my heart aches!

Sarah at Two!

This is the outfit that made me think she looks so old now!





So I was asked on my mommy board about some of Sarah's quirks. So I thought I'd do so here too.

- Sarah always puts on her winter hats and brings you gloves to put on her and then yells “I want snowman!” Now that it is nice out, we laugh at this everyday. When I put on her shoes, she'll also yell "I want snowman!"

- When I take her out of the tub, I wrap her in towels and stand up. She sees herself in the mirror, smiles HUGE and says to her reflection “Hi Sarah! Whatcha doing?” This is one of my favorite Sarah things! I love that she does this. She'll also do it when she's on the swing that is under our deck. When she swings back, she looks into the french doors, smile and say "Hi Sarah! Whatcha doing?" So funny!

- She wants to shake hands and says “Nice to meet you!” She usually saves this for me and dh (she’ll do it 10 + times in a row) but this week did it to an 8 month old at playgroup. My friend, the mom (Angel), couldn’t stop laughing.

- Just like someone else mentioned, Sarah needs you to carry her out of her room after she gets up in the morning or after nap. She will scream at you if you put her down to let her walk. I have no clue why she does this. She still really loves to be held. Sometimes it's great to hold her so much, sometimes not.

- When she wants something, she’ll come to you, grab your finger, pull you and say “show me!” It's cute sometimes, but not when it happens 20 times a day.

- She loves to count. She’ll walk from square to square on our kitchen floor and count. And tonight I heard her in her crib after I put her to bed couting over and over. She easily gets to 13 each time. She can get to 20 with help. She LOVES to count.

- She loves to sing. All the time. Lately she's been "performing" the ABC song to a lot of people. She loves the Kindermusic "our Time" Hello song. She sings the Jay Jay theme lots, parts from Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, etc. Lately she sings "Twinkle Twinkle" when we are out shopping.

More Sarah things:

She is now in mostly 18-24 months clothes.
She is starting to get picky but I don't let her get away with it.
She loves Jay Jay the Jet Plane, Go Diego Go, Dora, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, Little Bear, Calliou
She loves to eat Rice Kripies, grapes, melon, applesauce, cheese (can only have Cabot), goldfish
She is extremely lactose intolerent can't sleep at night if she's had any by mistake
She looks great in rose-ish colored pink, yellow, orange.
She doesn't look good in black, navy, dark greens
She loves books, esp Dora books!