School Update

Copied from my scrappin board:

This morning:
I did it. He is at school. I wanted to vomit. My legs were shaking. But I knew I had to do it. He is at school. I told the teacher and principle that I was a nervous wreck. I needed them to know. 4 of the moms were waiting to talk to the principle. They understand needing to change drop-off and pick-up but they are not happy with the way they are doing it. So, we’ll see. Most of the school year is cold weather. It is not right to make all the younger siblings wait outside. Don’t know what will happen. But I am glad they are talking to her. I kept looking behind me as I walked away. I cried as I drove away. But I did it. And I have a playgroup for Sarah coming over soon so I will be distracted. Yeah.

Oh...and all weekend he talked like he still didn’t get it. Today we didn’t talk about it. But when we were walking to school he told me “Mommy, I won’t run after you today.” That definitely helped.


After picking him up:
I went to pick him up and I was still shaking. But he came out happy. And he told me right away “I was crying for you but I didn’t run.” So I think he’s getting it a little after all.

More parents found out and were very upset, of course. The school still needs to figure out what they really are going to do with the cold weather. There are a lot of siblings that have to wait outside and they will be hearing lots of complaints. One mom is so upset b/c they will have gym classes on Fridays which means walking outside and crossing the street. That part actually doesn’t scare me too much. The teachers will be there and these kids need to learn to walk without running off. Now, Justin running out of the building and no one noticing is a different story. That is scary. But I think the kids will be fine on the way to gym. And Justin wasn’t running off just to run, he was chasing after me.

So, anyway, one day down and I feel much better. I got him right back to school so he knows he needs to be there.

It still is amazing to me that I reacted so differently than almost everyone I talked to would have. I did not yell at them. They are to blame, but so is Justin. Thank God he was safe. But yelling at them will only lead to making me “that parent.” I talked to them, they heard me and I know I can talk to them again if I need to. Yelling at them wouldn’t get me anywhere. I was just shocked that everyone else would have yelled so much. Oh well, I am just not a yeller I guess.

And now tonight:
I went to the PTO meeting to sign up as a grade parent. Ends up they are not allowing parents into the building anymore, for the most part. This is Pre K through 8. Woo! All cause of my kid! Anyway, at the meeting I saw the mom who got Justin and was able to thank her again and give her a hug. I almost started crying hysterically again. But I stopped it in time. Then I got to see 2 moms I knew from last yr and explained to them what had happened and why the drop off and pick up policies have changed so much. I was talking to one of the moms outside after the meeting when the principle came out so I ended up talking to her again for about 15 minutes. It was good to be able to let her know I am a level headed parent who is not yelling at her or the teacher but that I really am scared and that this really better not happen again. I will be nervous for at least a month, I am sure. But I'll have to deal with it.
Tonight Justin and dh were playing "school" and at one point I asked about one of the current new classmates of Justin. Justin's response was "Oh Clayton! He's a bad boy. He ran out into the road. But he learned his lesson and won't be doing it again."
I guess it is getting through a little.
But, also, the whole ride home from kindermusic tonight he talked non-stop about how he never wants to go to school again and how he wants to just stay with me. Ugh!